Where have we become?
I can't be sure of the answer to this question, but I can tell you that my thought process is very clear now with the aural tones and the soft back static. I will use this in my upcoming video trailers. Does this shit gradually slow down, or that just the electrical signals firing in my brain? What is happening with the pressure inside my head. It feels as if a membrane is become pressurized without control. This is going to kill me. And somehow, it feels great.
Today I really wanted to play Rush'n Attack!. Or, do I just feel like it's been all day? If this feeling was brought about by the eye doser, then I think it means something... bad. Perhaps the day that you've prophecized has come. I hear a train whistle, loud now, but no known tracks are near. I'll try to move on now.
I saw Henry Rollins the other night - his spoken word routine. It was good, in fact, much better than I expected. He comes off as an insecure famous dude, which is probably why he draws crowds with such an unorthodox act. He pretty much just tells stories all night, a lot of which touch on deeply seeded human emotion which we all have in common, and a general he discusses his general disdain for our political policies, which most of us have in common. A well received show by me. He wasn't overly political or politically pretentious for that matter, like a Sean Penn type. I need not mention the movie Into the Wild again, thank you. It’s too bad everything Sean Penn does can’t be as good as Bad Boys, which to me was a lot like the game Bad Dudes minus Karnov. Rollins didn’t say anything that we didn’t already know, but he did talk about things from a personal perspective, which you don’t get (or want to get) from talk radio or any cable news channel (remember that time O’Reilly wanted to falafel that lady on her answering machine? Now imagine him on stage trying to make that an engaging and funny story). Specifically, for example, he talked about speaking with an Iraqi cab driver that he met (please don’t allow that to feed stereotypes about Middle Eastern cabbies, I add). In this discussion, it was realized, sadly, that the people of countries rarely dislike each other (unless they’re Americans and they also happen to be into the faction of the modern country music scene that promotes ultra-patriotism and also those jerks that use too many parenthetical notes), instead, governments wage wars to benefit a group of people, of which I have yet to meet a member of in this country, but likely don’t literally exist except for in highly guarded fortresses and under ground bunkers. Again, this is not a new concept, nor is it all that informative. But, as I was saying, sadly, there isn’t a thing we can do about it. Nor has there ever been really, unless you consider the time some kids smashed up the military recruiting office in Madison that time. I think they got arrested and then the place stayed open anyway. Rollins didn’t say these things specifically, but I think we all knew it. And it was sad. And, I felt a little guilty, as I often do, that I lack the motivational effort to do anything. This too, I blame on the government, with their high-fat snack diet programs and “no exercise to freedom” program that I’ve recently started, not to mention the constant stream of demeaning and demoralizing mail I get personally from D. Rumsfeld and Harrison Ford daily. I know, I thought he was one of those Hollywood liberal types as well – as an example, he always sends me pictures of when he was in “The Fugitive,” and he has to fight that hooked-arm guy. But to be serious, it is quite a terrible feeling, and one that creates quite the pit of despair.
I haven’t talked about the politics much lately, and for good reason I think… at least internally. To be honest, the whole game is a bit disheartening and depressing, and to be even more honest, I don’t know a goddamn thing. Maybe that’s the one thing I learned. It’s ruthless too, and that’s a possible second and more important lesson; so is the rest of the world. In addition, Madison is certainly a bastion of political thought, and may indeed be 70 square miles surrounded by reality, as the conservatives say. However, I always maintain that there is no fate but what you make… yes, I coined that phrase originally. To go further, Milwaukee is not Madison, in fact, it is in many ways the opposite. The city is in dire need of change. Change, a broad and vague necessity, can’t be explained by me or anyone else in one shitty blog attempt, so I won’t even hurt myself. But I can tell you this: things will get worse before they get better. Account:
1) Friday a 19 year old girl was driving a mere 3 blocks from my home when she was shot in her van, causing her to crash and die.
2) Saturday night’s slumber was disturbed by a short shouting match and a triple gun shot. Not far away at all, but I’ve been pretty sure every weekend that this was going to happen at the establishment near here.
Now we’ll retrofit the place. Bars, wires, spikes, etc. Watch out. Or don’t? I’m not sure, I guess I’ll just move away like the rest who are able to, assuming I’m able to. Lots of kids live around here, and it’s really too bad. Again, probably not worth my making the commentary on why things are this way, and it will be much easier for me to just say, “because it is.” But it’s tragic and horrific, with only a grim forecast for the future. And although I’m cautious to admit because it may stir up guilt, I think we all have to step to the plate and come up with real answers.
Chew on that.
Today I really wanted to play Rush'n Attack!. Or, do I just feel like it's been all day? If this feeling was brought about by the eye doser, then I think it means something... bad. Perhaps the day that you've prophecized has come. I hear a train whistle, loud now, but no known tracks are near. I'll try to move on now.
I saw Henry Rollins the other night - his spoken word routine. It was good, in fact, much better than I expected. He comes off as an insecure famous dude, which is probably why he draws crowds with such an unorthodox act. He pretty much just tells stories all night, a lot of which touch on deeply seeded human emotion which we all have in common, and a general he discusses his general disdain for our political policies, which most of us have in common. A well received show by me. He wasn't overly political or politically pretentious for that matter, like a Sean Penn type. I need not mention the movie Into the Wild again, thank you. It’s too bad everything Sean Penn does can’t be as good as Bad Boys, which to me was a lot like the game Bad Dudes minus Karnov. Rollins didn’t say anything that we didn’t already know, but he did talk about things from a personal perspective, which you don’t get (or want to get) from talk radio or any cable news channel (remember that time O’Reilly wanted to falafel that lady on her answering machine? Now imagine him on stage trying to make that an engaging and funny story). Specifically, for example, he talked about speaking with an Iraqi cab driver that he met (please don’t allow that to feed stereotypes about Middle Eastern cabbies, I add). In this discussion, it was realized, sadly, that the people of countries rarely dislike each other (unless they’re Americans and they also happen to be into the faction of the modern country music scene that promotes ultra-patriotism and also those jerks that use too many parenthetical notes), instead, governments wage wars to benefit a group of people, of which I have yet to meet a member of in this country, but likely don’t literally exist except for in highly guarded fortresses and under ground bunkers. Again, this is not a new concept, nor is it all that informative. But, as I was saying, sadly, there isn’t a thing we can do about it. Nor has there ever been really, unless you consider the time some kids smashed up the military recruiting office in Madison that time. I think they got arrested and then the place stayed open anyway. Rollins didn’t say these things specifically, but I think we all knew it. And it was sad. And, I felt a little guilty, as I often do, that I lack the motivational effort to do anything. This too, I blame on the government, with their high-fat snack diet programs and “no exercise to freedom” program that I’ve recently started, not to mention the constant stream of demeaning and demoralizing mail I get personally from D. Rumsfeld and Harrison Ford daily. I know, I thought he was one of those Hollywood liberal types as well – as an example, he always sends me pictures of when he was in “The Fugitive,” and he has to fight that hooked-arm guy. But to be serious, it is quite a terrible feeling, and one that creates quite the pit of despair.
I haven’t talked about the politics much lately, and for good reason I think… at least internally. To be honest, the whole game is a bit disheartening and depressing, and to be even more honest, I don’t know a goddamn thing. Maybe that’s the one thing I learned. It’s ruthless too, and that’s a possible second and more important lesson; so is the rest of the world. In addition, Madison is certainly a bastion of political thought, and may indeed be 70 square miles surrounded by reality, as the conservatives say. However, I always maintain that there is no fate but what you make… yes, I coined that phrase originally. To go further, Milwaukee is not Madison, in fact, it is in many ways the opposite. The city is in dire need of change. Change, a broad and vague necessity, can’t be explained by me or anyone else in one shitty blog attempt, so I won’t even hurt myself. But I can tell you this: things will get worse before they get better. Account:
1) Friday a 19 year old girl was driving a mere 3 blocks from my home when she was shot in her van, causing her to crash and die.
2) Saturday night’s slumber was disturbed by a short shouting match and a triple gun shot. Not far away at all, but I’ve been pretty sure every weekend that this was going to happen at the establishment near here.
Now we’ll retrofit the place. Bars, wires, spikes, etc. Watch out. Or don’t? I’m not sure, I guess I’ll just move away like the rest who are able to, assuming I’m able to. Lots of kids live around here, and it’s really too bad. Again, probably not worth my making the commentary on why things are this way, and it will be much easier for me to just say, “because it is.” But it’s tragic and horrific, with only a grim forecast for the future. And although I’m cautious to admit because it may stir up guilt, I think we all have to step to the plate and come up with real answers.
Chew on that.
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